It was my 23rd birthday last weekend, which means I’m 2 years closer to cheaper car rentals! I did think about that silver lining for a while and that was the best of what I came up with…
Birthdays for me a generally an emotional roller coaster. On one hand, I love large gatherings… but at the same time, I hate large gatherings for me. Which puts me in a weird position of having quite a small birthday celebration when really I’d rather chill with the whole lot of them. Without being the person to invite anyone.
But that’s not the point of this post. The point of this post is to remark on differences that I feel I am experiencing at this part of my life. If there was ever a moment that an English professor swoops down and comments on an overly blatant thesis sentence, this would be the moment.
- The 9-5 life is not for me…but maybe it can be if I care enough. Maybe it’s just that I am young and I’m struggling to adjust to a demanding lifestyle that quashes all sense of self-sufficiency and freedom that I’m used to, but I feel like I’m suffocating. The only reason that I’m able to continue with my work is because I’m currently working with students that I care about. I think the further I get from non-profits or organizations that benefit society/the environment in some way, the less fulfilled I will feel.
- In the same vein, never will I prioritize a higher income that detracts from the quality of life. Although I’m living on a stipend that’s so small I’m qualified for food stamps, I value having enough time for my interests and personal growth over slaving away at a soul-consuming second job.
- I don’t know if it’s because it’s my first time living in a large city, but it’s like I’m trying to cram everything I missed about extracurriculars in college in this year. Although there are many things to hate about that 9-5 (or in my case, the 10-6), it does allow you to really prioritize what you enjoy doing; after being in the office for 8 straight hours, it’s so easy to just scurry home and bundle up for yet another TV marathon of your current obsession so it says a lot that you’re willing to extend your day away from bed in order to do some other activity.Currently, I’m dedicating time to the Austin Humane Society. And recently parted ways with a darling of a foster, Zara. I’m also trying to get more involved with the Alliance Française here as part of their marketing committee… but I may be overcommitting myself. We’ll see.And I’m building that bike from scratch at the Yellow Bike Project in Austin. So far, I’ve only gotten 4 hours down. So that’s 20 more to go. Let’s face it, we’re never going to get a bike.
- My personal moral code is getting stronger…in a way where there is way less wiggle room. Before, I would do something that I believed was wrong and was able to brush it off quickly. Now, when I do something that goes against what I believe, I can feel HORRIBLE about it for a long time… to an extent where I MUST correct the wronged situation. But I believe a stronger moral code is a result of having your actions line up with your beliefs. Good job, Michelle, you basically just defined “moral code.”This list is about to get quite short.
- I am overwhelmingly more interested in reading non-fiction books. Currently reading: The New Jim Crow.
- Less worried about how others think of me and less desperate to make EVERYONE like me. I’ve come to the realization that you’re going to get along with certain people and, although others may be cool too, you’re not going to jive with them.
- But also overwhelmingly more interested in animated shows. I’m looking at you, Bob’s Burgers.
- Getting my first tattoo was a mistake in that I now want to be tatted EVERYWHERE. I also thought I was a simplistic-outline, stamp-looking, black tattoo person. But after getting into Ink Master, I now want one really elaborate and colorful.
- I will be a cat lady when I’m older.